Here it is, 1:00am in the morning and I’m having trouble seeping and I thought I would use this time to fire up a quick post.
First a few health updates.
My last scan, back in January showed progression of disease. All previously known tumors had shown signs of growth. Also, numerous news spots/lesions/nodules (never sure what terminology they are using and what means what) have been found on my lungs.
Doc said that the good news was that all the growth was small, and the new ones were very small so we are not in crisis. Said I didn’t need to go back on chemo immediately, but probably would in the near future.
Well, the near future has come. I had another CT scan last Friday and don’t have the results yet. I’ll see the doc on this coming Friday and will find out the results and make plans for future treatment.
Our hope is that things have reversed and I can stay off of the hard chemo – maybe stay on this maintenance treatment.
I frankly haven’t felt well lately. I had a good couple of days a couple of weeks ago – full of energy, worked from early morning into the night. Was hoping this was a breakthrough but I went back to my old pattern and have been mightily fatigued in recent days. It is allergy season though, plus I got a nasty stomach flu a few weeks ago and I also had a bad reaction to the barium I had to drink for my CT scan the other day. So that may contribute, but basically I have been feeling terrible for some time now.
There is much good news though in all of this. 2 Cor. 4:16 is mine in these days:
So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day.
I’ve lost more than a step or two but I haven’t lost heart. My inner self is indeed being renewed and refreshed. If you or someone you know is going through a terrible trial, take it from me, God will sustain you in the trial. He won’t necessarily deliver you from the trial, but will be with you in the midst of it.
Though my attention is often largely diverted to physical matters, I believe and I feel that I am surrounded by God’s grace. Christ is sufficient. My wife is a constant companion. My children are a delight. The church is stalwart. And I have many friends out there in the cyber world who continue to pray. Of all the things I feel, and I feel many things which are all over the map, gratitude toward God and toward all of you is what I feel the most.